All my young life I feared and idolized my mother.
I starved for her attention. I yearned to be worthy of her love.

It would be no exaggeration to say that she once owned me, and I enjoyed to be used by her. I was always diving deeper and deeper into depravity for that single, mocking smile on her face that showed that I had pleased her.

And I am still sorry. Sorry that my failings turned her so wicked, that my desperation only fed her sadism until it consumed her whole. Alexsei would tell me I am wrong to blame myself, and sometimes I believe him. But sometimes I do not.

There is so much to tell about my beloved, cursed mother. » read more

I am Ryshassa do'Reshar, daughter of Sydrea do'Valis and Vidran Reshar.

I am of many worlds, a mirror of many selves scattered through the multiverse, but this is my first and true one: Eskarne, the fated planet.

I am a healer of the discipline of Vespera, which promotes the the empathic philosophy of "Understanding Pain." For us, healing is both hands-on and experienced very personally. Our patients' pain becomes our pain, and we bear such agony with pride and purpose.

Caduceus, begin bootstrap sequence.

Commencing.

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........Complete.

All systems healthy.

Memory integrity 100%.

*** CADUCEUS CURATORIS - LIVE ***

Welcome, Mistress Sophia. How may I be of service to you?

Please, Caduceus. I am Ryshassa Krauser in this life, and there is no need for honorific. I have much to for you to remember about my past... and my future.

Very well, Miss... Ryshassa. I will listen, and remember you well.